August, 2010, it was finally here, the beginning of what should be the last year before I graduate with a Bachelor’s degree. My case is solid, and assuming I take that one year’s worth of courses, there’s no way I’d have to stay in school any longer for that degree.
September, 2010, after minor disturbances I was two weeks into school, and all of sudden I felt the one year itch. No, not the marriage kind, but the “Keyla academic” type. During the past four years of my educational life, when I get to that last year I -almost robotically- have a change of heart and proceed to change my major accordingly. These “detours” have included Nursing, Anthropology, Biology, Sociology, and General Psychology degrees respectively.
While the logic behind the “curse of decision making” may be as simple as “Keyla no sabe lo que quiere,” I can assure you, it’s not that simple; I know what I want… for the most part. So I have finally identified it as an inability to make life-altering decisions when it comes to academia. *Keyla pauses for a second with enlightenment*
By this point you may be wondering what all this has to do with you— Well, a lot! Especially if 1) You were raised in a strict household, and/or 2) You are an authority figure enforcing a strict upbringing. As Latin@s-particularly females, many of us can attest to stern rearing. I happen to be a product of such a background, raised with parents who made every decision for me up until I was 18 (Seriously, every important and most minor decision). No, I’m not blaming my parents for my inability to make such a big decision and stick to it, and no, I cannot provide evidence that my theory is indisputable. However, I do see a correlation between a lifetime of no decision-making and suddenly having control of your life.
Con este problemita in mind, I wonder about a bigger issue, parenting styles and academic development. Should the child-rearing style in Hispanic families be considered a factor when attempting to answer the why’s of our absence in Universities and Colleges?
by Keyla Elizabeth Cedano